New Mommy

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Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Uh, oh...starting to worry...

So if you read my previous post, the plan was and is to put off the baby making business until October, to which by then I would have been back on my PCOS meds for 6 months and hopefully have lost about 30 lbs.
One slight problem....
I am starting to freak because I am late. Usually my monthly gift/curse arrives on Monday, and usually I have a 28 day cycle. It is Wednesday, and nothing. My ovulation calender that I have been using before the change of plans says I should probably take a test if it doesn't come by Thursday.
Thousands of thoughts run through my brain at the moment trying to figure out how a feel or how I should feel, if this is a good thing or a bad thing...if my medication can be messing with my cycle or if I could be pregnant, and if so, would me getting pregnant end badly i.e. miscarriage, unhealthy baby etc.
Could it be stress for the reason I am late? If I am pregnant how do I explain that to my doctor who specifically said not too until the before mentioned things were under control.
On top of that, after months of trying, should I be happy if I am pregnant? I want to be, but I am so worried about all the things my doctor said. I am also afraid to tell family because if I miscarry I don't know how we will all handle it.
I had to put it out there, all my concerns so I wouldn't keep them bottled up in worry and stress me out further.
P.S. last time I weighed myself I lost 5 lbs, pills make me nauseous and I vomited twice, I hope it was due to the medication and not because I could be pregnant.

1 comment:

  1. Thinking about you. Try not to stress, I know you have a LOT on your plate. Just continue what you've been doing and eating healthy and trying to lose some of that weight. I'm sure if you were pregnant now that you'd do great. You can always keep it between you and Chris after taking a test and seeing your doctor before announcing it to the world aka family. Make sure you and the baby are healthy first (if there is a baby) then announce. All good things will come to those who wait.